This blog documents the racing, training, & riding experiences of me and the participants of PWP

Pedaling with a Purpose

My name is Kristen Meshberg and I am the mother of two children and a category 1 bike racer. I compete nationally in both road and track. I am also a USA Cycling Coach, and help individuals develop plans to achieve their goals. To survive the Chicago winter, I run an indoor workout program called "Pedaling with a Purpose." To find out more about Pedaling with a Purpose or Coaching, email me at: kmeshberg "at" comcast"dot"net

Thursday, April 9, 2015

Read about PWP's Dan Meyer's recovery from a broken shoulder and hip to becoming faster than ever!!

By Dan Meyer
Last year, in March of 2014, I completed my first bike race. I really had no idea what racing would be like. I had only previously been a commuter biker for the past three years in Chicago, mainly riding on the lakefront path. I had just started training on a stationary bike trainer indoors with my spouse, Erica (Gaddy), who was a category 3 women racer. I was terrified I was not going to make it the entire 24 miles of the race I had picked. The week before my first race I rode my bike up and down lake shore path like a mad person multiple times. I think this was over 36 miles of hard biking that day, I had no bike computer, so I really had no idea how far I rode that day. Towards the end of my crazed lake shore path “training” ride I conked out about 14 miles from home, stopped at a grocery store and ate eight Cliff bars and rode the ‘L’ home exhausted. When I got home, Erica told me I was more than ready to do the race…I felt way better with her encouragement and somewhat ready.
Finally race day came, I was doing the 24-mile section of the Barry Roubaix Killer Gravel Road Race. The race was a lot quieter and peaceful than I had imagined. I felt pretty good through the race, except for during one hill climb, where I thought my head was going to boil, so stupidly I stopped to take my hat off and put my helmet back on. I remember watching a bunch of people pass me as I took my hat off. I also remember the high speed gravel down hills being pretty terrifying.  Also I did not corner well on gravel or pavement and I rode off the road and partially into a ditch around one curve...I went slower on subsequent corners. The final section of the Barry Roubaix winds through the downtown area of hasting MI and I remember this mountain biker ahead of me just going nuts with sprints and high speed cornering. I thought for sure he was going to wipe out...he didn’t and went flying over the finish line with a nice jump. His jump inspired me and I hopped over the finish line myself. That day I finished in 23rd place in 40-45 Men out of 66 riders with a rate of 14.7 miles per hour. I was really happy that I made it through the entire race and was surprised that I finished in the middle of my age group.
I didn’t do any racing the rest of the year until August, when I did a cyclocross relay race. I had planned to do some more cyclocross races and practices, but didn’t. I did continue to cycle to work a few times a week and did some stationary bike training. I also did a bike clinic which greatly increased my cornering skills.
Then, just before Thanksgiving, I wiped out on my bike on the way to work. I slipped and fell on some black ice. I remember thinking I just dislocated my arm and hip. But no, I had broken both my hip and shoulder on the left side of my body. The road that I slipped on was so icy the ambulance that picked me up almost slid off the road.
Both breaks required surgery. I wound up having three screws put into my hip, plus a plate and 11 more screws in my shoulder. I was in a wheelchair for a month and half. It sucked to go from being so active to so injured.
Gentlemen, we can rebuild him. We have the technology.
Fortunately by January, two months after my surgery, I was able to get back on my bike and start pedaling again.
Back on the horse: Dan commuting to work for the first time after his injury.
I could barely reach my handlebar with my left arm at first, but my Physical Therapist, Eric, helped get me there. I also started attending Pedaling with a Purpose (PWP) with my Erica every Sunday. PWP is lead by coach Kristen Meshberg and her positive words during training sessions helped me want to keep going. At first I could only lightly spin my legs for one hour of a two hour workout session. But with words of encouragement from my wife Erica, next to me each workout, I moved up to pushing myself hard. By the end of March I was cranking through an entire PWP two hour workout.
When the last weekend of March rolled around, it was time for a true test of my recovery: the 24 mile section of the Barry Roubaix Gravel Road Race. Despite being nervous about my injuries, I was excited because I knew what the race was going to be like.
At the start line, I positioned myself up near the front of my starting group. The buzzer went off and I went off the line hard, but quickly found a pace I could sustain for 24 miles. I focused on pushing myself hard but relaxing my upper body arms and neck as training had taught me. I also took note of the riders around me.
On one of the first gravel down hills, there was a rider who flew into the ditch and paramedics were helping him, I hoped he was alright, and had a flashback to my accident. Then I started asking other riders if they would like to work together with me. I got shut down a few times asking. Then just before the start of the paved road section of the race a rider said yes to my request to work together. We took turns drafting on the flat and downhill sections of the remaining gravel sections. By the time we hit the road portion, we were used to working together. We hit the paved road hard and really sped up, we took turns pulling, it was awesome! Then we started to get passed by a large peloton and we joined it to draft off the back. We both got dropped on a steep hill by the peloton, which sucked, but we quickly started working together again in the last zig zagging roads leading to the finish. It was awesome to use the skills I had learned in the cornering clinic to keep my speed up in these final stretches. The rider I was working with out sprinted me across the finish line. I had an awesome race! Charlie, the rider I worked with introduced himself to me and we chattered excitedly about the race for a moment.

Dan thawing out after the race (photo: Erica Gaddy)
I then went my car changed into warm clothes and waited for Erica and her Half Acre Cycling teammates to finish their longer 36 and 62 mile races. It was great seeing them finish their races and hear them talk about their race experiences.
When the results posted, I learned that I finished in 17th place in 40-45 Men out of 77 riders with a rate of 16.5 miles per hour, a much better position than last year!
This article was featured on the chainlink!

We don’t want to jinx it, but it seems like spring has finally sprung. If you’re like us, you’re probably dreaming of your favorite back road, limestone path, or mountain bike trail. But after a winter of neglect, your lungs and legs may not be up to the task.

Fortunately, Kristen Meshberg - a Category 1 road and track racer, USA Cycling Coach, founder of Pedaling with a Purpose, and all-around cool person - was willing to share her knowledge and experience with us. We asked her to provide some tips and tricks for getting back into shape in time for that century, Saturday morning group ride, week-long bike camping trip, or even the spring criterium you wanted to try. Whether you’re an aspiring racer or someone who simply wants to get fitter and faster, she provides some solid advice for the DIY types, as well as some insight into seeking the help of a coach.
By Kristen Meshberg
So you’re thinking you might want to kick start your cycling fitness. Spring is on it’s way, and bringing some great cycling weather with it. Raw talent accounts for something but most likely your success is tied to how much work you are willing to do. Have you been riding the trainer all winter or are you thinking “oh $#%%! I better get on my bike one of these days!” Where do you get started? I have been a serious cyclist for 20 years, and a bike racer for 14 of them.  For the last 11 years I’ve been helping Chicagoland cyclists get ready for spring by running the indoor cycling program, Pedaling With a Purpose (PWP). In this article, I’ll share some client concerns that have appeared as common themes over the years.  

Figure Out What You Want to Do
The first thing you need to do is figure out what you want to do, and develop some goals.   Have you raced multiple seasons in the past but now you’d like to do more, maybe cat up? Perhaps you’ve been riding, but have never raced and would like to try it? Do you want to race at the velodrome? Perhaps you don’t want to race but would just like to kill it on the group ride that you like to go on? Or maybe do a century? Or RAGBRAI? There are so many options out there, and if you aren’t familiar our local scene, your first goal should be to do some research and get that figured out. At PWP we talk a lot about goals and people share what they are working toward. Make sure you formulate them as SMART goals: Specific, Measurable, Achievable, Realistic, and Time Sensitive. Saying them out loud holds you more accountable, and if you don’t feel like saying them out loud to your friend or significant other, say them out loud to yourself! Now would be a great time to start a training journal, your first entry can be writing down your goals.  

Where Are You Starting From?
What you’ve done previously and where you are starting from makes a difference in how your body is going to respond when you start training and how much volume and intensity you can handle. Questions to ask yourself are: How much experience do you have doing what you are working towards? How many cumulative miles do you have in your legs? Were you an athlete in another sport turning to cycling because of an injury? Have you been training for multiple years without seeing any improvement? Or are you are starting from zero? Answers to questions like these will help you figure out your plan.  

How Do You Make a Plan?
There are several good books on training plans out there or a quick internet search can pull up any number of plans. Use your answers to the questions above and formulate your plan keeping your goals in mind at all times. If you are starting from zero, just get out there and get some miles in. Remember if you want to get better at riding your bike, you’ve got to ride your bike! Don’t forget to incorporate rest. Beginning cyclists often overlook rest, and it’s a common cause of burnout. I have all my athletes take two days a week off or at least very easy. When I was starting out, I struggled with this concept but without rest, you will at best plateau and at worst make yourself sick.
Meshberg battling with Chicago Cuttin' Crew's Daphne Karagianis and Marie Snyder at the Northbrook Velodrome. Photo by Catherine Watkins.
When Do You Need a Coach?
When I first started bike racing, I came from a background of lots of riding. I had worked full time as a messenger, did a few triathlons, ridden across a good chunk of the country, and was a pretty serious commuter. I had lots of miles in my legs and I knew I liked to ride my bike, but had no idea of how to “train.” After jumping in a few races at the end of one summer I was hooked! I loved the scene and felt like this was something I could be good at. I thought training meant riding as hard and as long as I could ALL the time. I think most beginners think like this. And when I say beginner, I mean beginner racer. I had thousands of miles in my legs at this point, but I was still a beginning racer. After I did some races, decided this was something I wanted to pursue, and realized I didn’t know anything about training, I was ready for a coach! A good time to hire a coach is after you’ve spent some time on the bike getting things figured out and maybe even having a season of racing under your belt.  People hire coaches for all sorts of reasons. Not everyone that races has a coach, and not everyone that has a coach races. A coach’s job is to design a custom training plan that will maximize your time and help you achieve your goals while considering your work/life balance. Maybe you need help figuring out what some good goals are? A good coach can help you with that.  There are lots of coaching styles out there and it’s important to find a coach that is a good fit for you. I’ve worked with several different coaches over the years, even some famous ones, and there were some that were highly recommended by other people, that did not work for me at all. It takes time to develop the relationship and you need to go into it with an open mind and heart and be willing to give their plan a shot. Once I had a coach that wouldn’t give me workouts, he would just have me come over to his house and do super intense intervals on a computrainer. I was so frustrated because I had no idea why I was doing this and what I should be doing the rest of the week. But because he came so highly recommended by people I respected, I wasted a lot of time trying to figure out what I was doing wrong. What I did wrong was not move on to a new coach. There are lots of coaches out there with lots of different styles and it’s important to find one that’s a good fit for you.  

Sweating it up at PWP, hosted at BFF Bikes
What Sort of Equipment Do You Need?
When thinking about your equipment, safety should be your number one priority.  All your equipment needs to be maintained by a good mechanic, and anything worn out should be replaced. You never want to crash because of an equipment failure and hurt yourself, but to crash someone else out in the process is totally unacceptable. This time of year when it’s still a little bit crappy out is the perfect time to get your bike in for a tune up. If you wait until the nice weather hits, you’ll be getting in line behind everyone else with the same idea so get on that! Getting into your local shop is also a great place to meet people and find out about clubs and group rides. If you do end up riding your bike a lot you will either learn how to do your own mechanic work or develop a relationship with a good mechanic as things constantly need to be adjusted, and/or replaced. Go to a locally-owned reputable shop and get to be on a first name basis with your mechanic! And showing up with beer and/or coffee when you drop your bike off never hurts. The amount of money you can spend on bikes and equipment is staggering. When you are starting out ride whatever bike you can get your hands on and focus on improving your motor. I can’t tell you how many times I have heard a beginning racer lament  “if only I had  ______, then I could be good” A power meter isn’t going to do the work for you, it’s only going to measure it. If you want to get faster, ride your bike!!! Nice equipment is fantastic and if you can afford it, go for it! Spend as much as you like and enjoy it! But don’t let not having “it” hold you back from doing what you’d like to do.  

Meshberg says a supportive group atmosphere helps keep you focused and motivated 
When is Indoor Training Helpful?
Living in Chicago, we don’t have great roads to ride on and we don’t have great weather in the winter. This combination makes training outside in the winter extremely tough.  Remember, if you want to be good a bike riding, you’ve got to ride your bike! So the only way to really train in the Chicago winter is inside. I’ll never forget the winter I was trying to train to be a cat 2. I had just upgraded and signed with an elite team for the next season. I had hired a coach who was a good fit, and he was giving me solid training advice. I had purchased a computrainer for my basement, and  I was ready to train! Problem was I could never seem to get through more than 20 minutes alone in the basement. It was soul sucking and BORING!  My winter training that year consisted again of commuting to work, a couple trips to the gym and only a handful of workouts in the basement. I came out of the winter with the same fitness level as before. I floundered in the cat 1/2 fields and became discouraged. It wasn’t until I started doing Pedaling With a Purpose (PWP) that everything changed. After doing PWP, I was able to make HUGE improvements in my fitness over the winter. Every year I improved. I started winning races and competing nationally. I attained Category 1 status in both Road and Track. Seeing this improvement was extremely motivating! I’ve been running PWP for 11 years now and I always used to wonder if I would enjoy doing it if I wasn’t training for racing.  Turns out I love it more than ever! The people that come to PWP are super interesting and I love hearing what they are working towards. I really do just love riding my bike and PWP gives me that time designated to riding each week. The positivity and communal energy during a PWP session is contagious. There is no way that I (and I’m confident to say this about the participants too) would ever be able to accomplish at home in our basements what we accomplish during each PWP session. It doesn’t matter what your goals are, PWP will help you achieve them. We have had all levels of bike racers, triathletes, and enthusiasts join us over the years. From total beginner to the world level competitor, and each person is working at their own level. Everyone is welcome and everyone works out according to their own level. Sessions run until the end of March and we have locations at BFF Bikes on Armitage in Chicago, and Hartley’s Cycle Shoppe in Hinsdale. Joining us for even a few of our final sessions will truly kickstart your fitness!

Can You Also Lose Weight While Getting Faster?
Bike racers are some of the most weight/body fat obsessed people there are. The spandex doesn’t help matters either. In my struggles with this issue I’ve found that focusing on performance is very beneficial. Only put high quality fuel into your body if you want it to run its best. Some people start exercising and the weight just falls off. If you’re one of those, good for you! Make sure you get enough healthy calories to maintain your energy. I’m one of those lucky people that can come back from a stage race heavier than when I left. Great for surviving the apocalypse, but not so great for the power to weight ratio. Like training, in weight loss there are no quick fixes. You’ve got to make food choices based on your exercise output.  If you’re planning a full racing season, winter time is the best time to focus on weight loss.  But spring is here now and if your weight is not where you’d like it to be you can still make progress. It is just all that more important to take it slow. Cyclists come in all shapes and sizes. Thinking you need a certain body type to be successful is just plain wrong. Often times people, women especially, look at those guys who race the Tour de France and think we need to make our bodies look that way. Shift the focus of what you think you should look like to increasing your power on the bike, making healthy food choices, and being healthy overall.  

So that’s it. It’s not about finding that one secret workout. Results come by consistent work over time. You can achieve great things, it just depends how much you are willing to invest.

Lead photo by Burnham Racing.

Thursday, December 11, 2014


Seasons Greetings from PWP!

We are off to a fantastic start this year and our Wednesday and Saturday sessions at BFF Bikes are sold out.  I know a lot of you have been out racing 'cross  (or maybe not :) and might have missed the cut-off for PWP at BFF bikes.  I’m super excited about the awesome enthusiasm but bummed that we had to close registration.

Due to the high interest, we are offering another PWP session on Sunday afternoons from 4-6 pm at BFF bikes starting in January. 

If you are looking for help to get through a 2 hour bike work workout this winter, come join PWP on Sunday afternoons!  

This time slot could fill up as well—so if you’d like to get in on this, sign up right away!


Location-- BFF Bikes 2113 W. Armitage
Every Sunday beginning January 4 and Ending Sunday March 22
12 sessions 
Cost $179

To confirm your registration, send payment via Chase Quickpay to me at or via Paypal, same email.  If you pay via paypal be sure to select “gift to friend” to avoid fees.

I hope this new day and time works for you!  If not there is still space in the Hinsdale location on Thursday Nights and Sunday Mornings (info below).

Looking forward to seeing you!

Warm Regards,

Kristen Meshberg
USA Cycling Coach
Founder:  Pedaling With a Purpose
Chicagoland’s Best Indoor Winter Training Program for Cyclists

Sunday, October 5, 2014

Pedaling With a Purpose 2014-2015 Details

PWP is a winter training program designed to help all levels of cyclists get through the Chicago winter.  

This year will be our 11th year!  In those 11 years we've had World level competitors, beginning cyclists, and everyone in between all getting through the winter together.  

We have 2 locations, Chicago and Hinsdale.  All locations have (free) bike storage available.  

New to PWP? Have questions? Feel free to email me at

Looking forward to seeing you in December!

BFF Bikes
2113 W. Armitage Ave
Wednesdays 7:30-9:00pm
Saturdays 8:00-10:00am
***Wednesday evenings in Chicago are full.  (If you've already registered, you're in!)  We've opened up a new session on Sunday afternoon, where there's plenty of room, and limited space is available on Saturday mornings.  

Hartley's Cycle Shop
24 W Hinsdale Avenue
Thursdays 7:30-9:00pm
Sundays 8-10:30am

Friday, June 13, 2014

New Adventures

You might have noticed there hasn't been any race reports from me this year.   I'm taking a break from racing.  The family and I are moving to Idaho for the summer and I'm going to be working on a ski resort leading horseback rides.  I will be bringing my bike, and riding and living at elevation.  I'm looking forward to "just riding".

I'm excited to try something new and getting to spend time with my kids, but  I will definitely be back in town in time to get ready for PWP this winter!

Hoping to have some posts from PWP participants' experiences this summer, so send 'em on over!

Friday, May 9, 2014

PWP on the Podium!

Congrats to PWP's Erica Gaddy at the Champaign Urbana Criterium, 2nd place, Women's 3/4 

Wednesday, May 7, 2014

PWP's Kelly Clarke (and a bunch of Spidermonkies & other PWPer's) at the LaCrosse Omnium, LaCrosse, WI

Read PWP's Kelly Clarke's report on the LaCrosse Omnium:

Guys, I never knew you could have so much fun. It’s mostly because of my awesome teamies*, but also LaX was a really great series, a fun town to visit, and those Wisco/Minnie gals COME TO RACE, no pussyfooting about it.
*La Crosse Teammates:
Kelsey ‘All City’ Phillips
Lindsey ‘Feels’ Fahey
Lauren ‘BP**’ Wissman
Sarah ‘The Whip’ Rice
Eric ‘Soigneur’ Landhal
Kurt ‘Long Legs’ Breitenbucher (wait, it’s possible to have a name more complicated than Diffenderfer?)
Pete ‘Personal Poops’ Monko
And our favorite ray of sunshine, Zark.
**Bitches Popped
We decided to drive the course when we got into town. This was a very good idea. You should drive the course when you can. Sarah spoke for us all when she said, ‘I would have shit myself if the first time I saw this was during the time trial.’ It was a lot steeper than we expected, but there was a beautiful view at the top.
We stopped to talk about the course – not even the whole way to the finish.
Later, when we arrived for the race, Pete and I decided to ride the course once. On the way up, it started drizzling. By the time we reached the top, it was pouring cold rain. I tried to warm up on rollers, but my feet were so cold they hurt, so I just jogged around for a half hour til my start.
I was not comfortable with dude holding my seat, so I took a standing start. I kept asking him to move so I wasn’t crooked and he wasn’t, so I chose to not be pro and go for comfort. The course is steep from the get go. People were cheering from underneath umbrellas. Water was flowing down the street in a stream as we pressed upward. I’ve done few time trials, but in all of them you get so inside your head. I seem to start out hating myself, and then end up in fight mode. I tried to go at ‘hard, but don’t blow up’ pace. I passed one girl and heaved out a ‘Sorry. Keep it up.’ I passed a few juniors. I wanted to catch the girl in front of me. I kind of just wanted to be at the top of the hill so I could focus on getting dry clothes and being warm again – my chamois probably weighed ten pounds and there were buckets of water in my shoes. But everyone else was dealing with the same conditions. The course flattened out at the top, and it felt good to go from a grinding 8-12mph to 20+. I didn’t catch the girl in front of me, but I did get closer.
There was little room at the top, so as soon as I caught my breath, I thanked the officials and started to head back down. I stopped 200 meters down to wait for Lindsey and Kelsey but also because there was an incredible double rainbow. The sky was opening and it was the brightest rainbow I’ve ever seen. A super friendly Brone’s Bikes girl stopped to chat and check out this awesome scene. Kelsey and Lindsey finished shortly after me and we all headed down the hill. The Brone girl stopped at the turn to meet her boyfriend and adorable puppy. So this terribly cold and rainy uphill time trial ended with puppies and rainbows. And I did well enough for second place, missed first by 3 seconds.
With every race, but especially time trials, it’s natural to think ‘I could have gone harder.’ You always could have done better, and you always could have done worse. It’s a mental game when you’re redlining and your body is telling you to stop, but you want to go harder. I did the best I could for that moment.
Hella fast, right from the start. Hella fun. Attacks all over the place, constant moving around and fluctuation of speed – everyone was focused, reacting and making moves. The pack rarely settled down. I was trying to stay in good position and not kill myself. I felt pretty good taking the corners at speed with the group – better than last year (this was the first crit I’ve done this year with actual corners). Ten minutes in I thought, “This is the most fun I have ever had.” Lindsey did awesome – she attacked a few times, bridged me back up to the group once without knowing it. She was pretty pro – right there with all these other top notch ladies. Something I noticed is that I was in the drops the entire race. I usually come up to the hoods if things get boring or slow, but it was ‘go time’ the entire race. There was a crash in the last turn. I went inside, so I was able to avoid the shrapnel and loud screeches, but there was tons of brakes. The top gals were way in front of me by the time I jumped for the sprint. I ended up 7th. Wish I could have had a little better position into the second to last corner, but I was still pretty happy with the finish – it could have been worse.
Our other teammates all raced extremely well. Kelsey worked in a chase group with a gal from Minneapolis that we became friends with that day. Pete and Zark raced twice in blazing fast races. Monko took fifth in one! Lauren attacked like crazy and Sarah was nothing short of fierce in their crit. It was a fun day at the park racing, watching races and making new friends.

Pretty sure Wiss and Slice had as much fun racing as I did.
Rad Race
Sunday’s road race started out great. I was sitting second in the omnium, I knew the gal I needed to beat, and the three that I couldn’t let beat me. I had great positioning. Then there was a massive downhill. I tucked into the drops, squeezed the top tube with my knees and decided to go for it no matter how scared I was. My bike started shaking like crazy, waving back and forth frenetically. I was sure I had a flat or some kind of mechanical. I feathered the brakes – no change. I took my hands completely off the brakes – still shaking like crazy. Not like the normal downhill chatter, but like frantically waving back and forth. I scrubbed speed, swearing wildly in my head, ‘Just fucking stay upright. Don’t crash. Stay upright!!’ Ladies whizzed past me. I stopped at the bottom and looked at my bike. Checked the tires, checked the headset – nothing wrong. What the fuck. The official pulled over and asked if I was OK. ‘Yeah.’ I checked the bike for a second longer, then looked up to see the pack no longer in my sight. Took a deep breath and dug in. I would have to go really hard to catch them, but the race was over if I didn’t. It was do or die in the next few miles. The course started going up. Good. I can usually catch people on the climbs. Around the corner I could see the car maybe 500 meters out. But it was early enough in the race that no one was attacking and the pace was still fairly conservative. I chipped away. Girls were getting knocked out on the climb. I couldn’t work with them, because they were seemingly going backwards. Got so close the pace car moved over so I could merge back with the group. But I was breathing so hard, snot and spit running down my face. The pack was maybe 200 meters to the top of the big climb, I was maybe 10 meters from them, and I completely blew up. Well, I didn’t fall over and lay on the ground. But I couldn’t keep up my chasing speed. I slowed way down. They disappeared over the top of the climb. My heart was beating out of my chest. I got over the top and tried to kick it in – my last hope. There was an IsCorp girl that looked like she had some power left. I asked her to do 30 second pulls and work to get back. She said sure, I took a pull, counting to 40 and popped over. She said, ‘Sorry, I don’t have what you need.’ I started to dig in again, but they were gaining distance and I was spent.
My foot was killing me – pretty sure I broke a toe at some point before the race. It had been hurting the whole time, but now the pain was front and center. I wanted to stop, but I thought about how Dean says finishing is important. I decided I had to finish. My Garmin was broke, so I didn’t even have numbers to distract me. I decided this long solo ride would be punishment for not descending well and losing the group. Except it’s not really punishment, because the course was beautiful, the roads were perfect, and I was on my bike! And I had decided just this weekend that racing a bike is the most fun that could possibly be had. It’s just better when you’re in the main group or have someone to work with. I saw Eric. He was yelling to go catch the group. I yelled back, ‘Sorry!’ He was such an amazing support all weekend, that disappointing him weighed much heavier than my own disappointment – not that such a nice guy would actually be disappointed. I was not trying to make the other spectators think he was angry and a jerk, but they might have looked at him weird.
I was trying to psych myself up to bomb the descent the second time around, but my bike still felt kind of weird, like the front and rear wheel were not in sync. Even though I couldn’t decipher a problem with the bike, I decided to Granny it down the hill. What if the uncontrollable shaking happened again and I crashed this time? In the turn before the descent I looked back and saw Kelsey and the IsCorp girl waving. They passed me on the way down. Then Lindsey passed me and said, ‘I’ll help you after this!!’ I took my sweet time down the descent, then booked it at the bottom to catch up with my teammates.
When I came to Lindsey, she started pedaling really fast, ‘I’m going to bridge you back up to the group!’ I tried to get her to take turns pulling.
She said, ‘No, let me do all the work!.’
‘Don’t be a hero, this race is over. Just take turns pulling with me.’
We did. We also saw a colorful rooster. Then the incline came and the pulling fell apart. I felt bad about it, but I left Lindsey behind. I wasn’t sure how many women were ahead of me, and I at least wanted to get in front of the IsCorp girl. I was able to pass a few more people before the end. I finished 16th and not near any of the other racers.
I know it’s good to hang back and work with people, but I always feel like I end up going slower than I want. Maybe I need to get over that. Last year at the Michigan State Road Race, I worked with Chelsea Strate after we got popped off the back. The speed was good and it was great to work with someone. I don’t know at what point you sacrifice speed to work with people. And if my race is over, I want to still get a good workout by working hard. Maybe I am doing it wrong by always time trialing after getting popped off. My goal is to NOT get popped off, though, and stay competitive in the field next time.
It was a great weekend of racing and hanging out with my teammates. I was disappointed I did so poorly in the road race, but as it turns out, my rear hub was really loose, and that is what caused the shaking – NOT user error as I assumed. I still need to practice descending A LOT. I love omniums and I love my teammates. The end.

Making friends at the crit. Photo cred: Anna Schwinn